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Healthy Boundaries?

Growing up I always felt like I had to 'do what I was told' or else. A lot of what I learned as a child in terms of relationship bonds and my place in the world is mirrored in my adult relationships. It's taken me many years to figure what my mirror is showing me both good and bad.

I'm guessing many woman (not all) have felt the pressure to conform to others expectations and at the same time not wanting to hurt anyone's feelings or risk being seen as uncooperative. The price woman have paid over the decades has been insurmountable. I think of the mom on Leave It To Beaver, and how woman either bought into or felt that's what they should aspire to. Later on in television was the Mary Tyler Moore Show. The show was about a single woman in her thirties working at a TV station. In the show she was portrayed as a strong independent woman who knew more than those she worked with. Many decades since then more women are in the workplace than ever and more are showing …
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Trying the 'New' Weight Watchers Program

I've been on the new WW program starting January 11th, 2018 (to date 3/21/2018 I've lost 7 lbs).  Why? Because what do I have to lose besides pounds of course!? My sanity perhaps on what seems like a life long journey. Woops! Too late!

My ultimate goal in life when it comes to health and weight loss is to be able to eat without counting calories or points. That can be very difficult for me. Since starting this blog I have earned a degree in Exercise Science and I now have certifications: ACSM CPT, ACE GFI and I've completed coursework to be a licensed coach in my state. With all my education and personal experience (80 lb weight loss) I would have thought things would be easier by now but they're not. Science has proven that when it comes to weight loss it's calories in vs. calories out. Unfortunately calorie counting doesn't account for all the psychological, sociological and biological reasons why we eat what we eat. I need to try a new approach so I'm g…

Elders, Education and #MeToo

Sitting in the waiting room while my car is being serviced. I'm having a tow hitch installed so in the spring we can transport the family bikes to a local bike trail. Since I'm waiting for it to be installed I figured now is a great time to do some writing while I wait.

Most recently I read in the New York Times the interviews of the women who worked in the Ford Motor plant in Detroit, Michigan. The article was about sexual harassment in the Ford Motor Plant. As I was reading the article I felt sick to my stomach and angry. Angry that this was a part of the culture in the Ford Motor Company Plant. The women involved in the settlement received approx. $200k in exchange for no longer being able to keep their job? How is that even possible?   According to the New York Times article titled How Tough Is It to Change a Culture of Harassment? Ask Women at Ford  "Many of the women back then felt betrayed by both Ford and their lawyers, and said they were pressured into giving up…

The #MeToo Campaign

Fingers crossed that this trend continues. For the past 10 days, I've been feeling energetic for the first time since? It's been so long I can't remember. I'm feeling cautiously optimistic. It feels like I don't have depression anymore. What an amazing feeling that I hope never ends. Its kind of ironic as this time of year gets difficult with the shorter days. I've been using my Verilux lamp in the morning as I have for the last few years so I'm not sure if that has anything to do with why I'm feeling good? I'm feeling better now than I did a year ago. 

Depression doesn't affect me in ways someone might think when it comes to energy. I'm high functioning in that I'm not catatonic. It's just that my energy is limited (occasionally it feels like gravity is turned up or I'm trying to walk through waist-deep snow thankfully not often). A friend once explained to me what it's like to have Lyme disease (unfortunately she has chronic…

45 years old?

I haven't been posting on this blog consistently for quite a while. Why?  I write about things that inspire me (I'm never short on inspiration but I am short on time). For several months my brain has been focused on getting healthier physically, mentally, working on my business (yes business :-) for personal training) and doing all the parenting things parents do with and for their children.


Writing about depression gets old and I didn't want to bore myself or anyone more than I already have. My recent weight loss has been small (10 lbs) and I'm working on a way to lose more weight without having to log my food every day. I generally feel my best when I'm exercising and lately, that's been playing pickleball.

Pickleball, in my opinion, is the latest up and coming sport. If you never heard of pickleball before it's not hitting a ball that's shaped like a pickle. It's a sport that's a combination of tennis, bad mitten, and table tennis. I play two…

Depression - Round Two

What I'm about to share with you I find to be very personal but I want to share this with you to give you a peak of what it can be like for someone with depression and suicidal thoughts. Keep in mind that every individual with depression has a different story so what I experienced doesn't mean everyone with depression has the same experience or symptoms. There can be people who have milder forms of depression and potentially have no anxiety symptoms at all. Writing about my experience helps me in getting better and hopefully fights the stigma of not talking about it. 

Please note when I started writing this post I wasn't feeling well. I stopped writing and came back to this post about 3 weeks later. I'm feeling much better now and I'm getting stronger. Depression is biological, psychological and sociological. The best course for treatment is medication and therapy.


I've been wanting to write for a while now and as I write this I am not feeling well. I haven't…

(A Non Traditional) Graduate!

I'm sitting in my living room as I write this on Memorial Day (it's raining outside), while my husband puts away the last of our folding chairs. We celebrated my graduation yesterday with my siblings, niece, nephew and parents. The last time I sat and wrote something (outside of a college paper) was May of 2015. Since then I've had little snippets of time to share tweets or post recipes on Pinterest.

A lot has happened since May of 2015. We just about gave up hope of finding a puppy and after our first rescue experience swore off of getting another rescue. Since then we went to looking for a purebred puppy (insert a couple thousand dollars here!) and then discovered we could actually rescue a puppy! We found a dog named James Bone who was being fostered in Road Island and originally came from South Carolina. The second we met him we knew he was a match! He is an amazing dog and I wouldn't trade him for the world! He's so loving and loves people and other dogs. The…