Thursday, January 27, 2011

Eating Disorders

I received an email the other day from a reader of my blog about anxiety around food and I thought what better time than now to talk about eating disorders (anorexia, bulimia, binge eating) .

I have never suffered from anorexia or bulimia but have had some issues I believe with binge eating (how else does someone who's 5' 2" get to 215lbs - right?).

I remember there being a time in my life where food didn't matter.  I would much rather play outside then go inside at lunch time to eat.  I would finally come in for dinner and I would be so tired from running around outside I would fall asleep at the dinner table with my face in my plate.  At some point that all changed.

It was the beginning of summer and our babysitter took us to the local corner store in our neighborhood.  I was about the age of eight at the time and I purchased a bag of Dortitos (not the small size but a normal/large bag that had several servings in it).  I'm not sure where I got the money for the Doritos (my piggy bank if my memory serves me right).  By the time we got back from the corner store (about a 20 minute walk) the bag was empty and I didn't share them with anyone.  I remember how good it felt to eat those Doritos and saying to myself: "eating these felt so good I need to do this some more".  Since then I've overeaten many times (eating even though I'm already full).  Not all my weight however was entirely put on from overeating past the point of being full.  There were many bad food choices I made in my past aka 'comfort food' that served the same purpose as eating an entire bag of Doritos (cheesecake for breakfast, dinner, lunch, snack - you get the idea - a comfort food binge of sorts). 

Today I look at food differently but much like an alcoholic craves alcohol I feel that same way about food when I'm feeling stressed or emotional in addition to just the usual overeating at the holidays.  I am however continually working on changing that :-)  A big part of not overeating is thinking about how awful my body is going to physically feel after eating a large amount of food that is really bad for my body.

In closing I have no experience with bulimia or anorexia on a personal level but I would encourage anyone who thinks they have either one of those or anxiety around food to seek help.  Your health is at risk. 

Here is a link to more information about eating disordershttp://psychcentral.com/disorders/eating_disorders/

PS - To the anonymous person who sent me the email about food anxiety.  If you are reading this please get help if you haven't already.  And to anyone else reading this please feel free to share your thoughts anonymously if you so choose by clicking on 'comment' below this posting - in the drop down menu select 'anonymous'.

2 comments:

  1. Thanks for sharing your journey, Sonya!

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  2. I saw your announcement on facebook - glad you are writing, sharing, challenging yourself! And welcome to the blogosphere!

    Best wishes...

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