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Discouraged

Feeling a little bit discouraged and angry with myself.  I think I have to change my workout routine.  I felt like I didn't have the energy or the will to bust out a 4 mile run today.  Was it the food I ate last night? Am I not rested because my son M was up at 4am this morning and I had gone to bed late last night?  Was it the two alcoholic drinks I had last night at dinner?  As I was doing my run 5 minute, walk 1 minute I was feeling defeated.  I hadn't gotten up early enough and out the door fast enough to give myself the proper time to run 4 miles and at mile. 2.25 I was ready to call it quits (so I did - I also had to run to my Butts and Guts Class).

Tomorrow would normally be a day off but I feel like I need to get some time in with some running.  I hope to do 4 miles.  I'm not sure I'm going to be able to based on how I feel now but I think I'm going to give it a try.

Instructor Connie
and I post workout.
On the upside the good part of my workout today was the Butts and Guts Class.  Connie is a great instructor and is always smiling.  I often wonder how someone with a such a sweet smile can bust out such a hard workout.  Connie if you are reading this I appreciate your workouts and the tougher the better :-).

This picture is one of only a few where I'm wearing something sleeveless.  A year ago this wouldn't have even entered my mind as a possibility!
Hoping to feel more energized tomorrow during my run.  Wish me luck!

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