Sunday, February 13, 2011

Staying Motivated

I am a member of PEERtrainer.com and have been now for a year.  Another member asked me this question: "tell us how you've just kept going all this time??"

There are probably a million little reasons I can think of as to why I've just kept going.  When I first made the decision to do this (lose weight) in my mind it was a decision to be a lifetime commitment.  This for me was not another crash diet or a lose 20lbs before summer to look ok in a bathing suit.

I wanted this to be a lifetime transformation.  Frankly it's allot of hard work to lose weight and this time I am not going to just throw away all the hard work like I have done so many times before. 

Losing weight and getting fit is a #1 priority for me and nothing is going to get in my way.  Do I have responsibilities to my family?  Yes I do however there has to be balance.  If I don't put my health and well being first then I can't be here for my family in a healthy way both physically and mentally.  Along the way I've learned that I should and can ask for help.  While no one can do the actual work for me I am lucky to have a husband that is very supportive in making the time to help me out so I can do the work (for example on a snow day he will watch the kids so I can spend a little time on the treadmill for 40 minutes).  

Even though I am doing well there are times I have serious doubts about my ability to keep this up.  I have gone back to my 'old ways' so many times before in the past and I'm afraid I could repeat history at any moment.  But I can't.  It would be devistating for me to go back to the way I used to be.  So here I am in limbo.  Not wanting to go back (that is not an option anymore) and yet at the same time feeling scared about potentially not being able to maintain this healthy lifestyle for the future.  It's an internal struggle I have and some days are better than others.  It's a delicate balance and all I can do is continue to make the right decisions in the hopes to tip the scales in my favor.  For today. For Forever.

1 comment:

  1. A few steps back does not a return to old ways make. You have tasted the good life, hell you are here and I have all faith that you'll never return! Congrats on all you've achieved and all you'll do.

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