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Highs and Lows

It's 11:38pm and I'm wide awake.  I had two cups of coffee this afternoon as I'm suffering from jet lag.  Last night I went to bed around 12am after getting home from San Francisco.  While sitting on the plane I was thinking about what my life has been like since January of last year (when I started this journey of weight loss).  In many ways I can't believe all I've accomplished thus far and I feel like this is just the beginning. 

To date since January 2010....
I'm no longer obese.
I no longer have high blood pressure.
I now wear a size 6 in jeans for the first time in my life.
I now wear a size small top for the first time in my life.
I can wear spandex :-)
I'm not going to be afraid to wear a bathing suit this summer for the first time in my life.
I've lost 78lbs (and counting :-).
I've run 4 races to date with my first race being in March and my longest race having been a 12k (7.5 miles which was my reason for the trip to SF). 

Since the race on Sunday I'm feeling a little melancholy.  I’m happy to be home as I missed my boys and my husband but I miss the feeling of what it was like in the race and being in a fun city with great food, great company and a culture that is alluring.  I went from 5 days of complete physical and mental freedom (no diapers, picking up spills and worrying about everyone else) to coming back to a rainy cold New England and trying to get things done while figuring out a new plan for myself.   All of my training was in the name of this race and now it’s over and I’m relieved without needing a schedule but what’s next??   What goals will I have for myself now?  What does my future look like?  What I do know is that in my future there will be no more obesity.  No matter what!

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  1. I so happy for you that you had the opportunity to go on this little vacation! I could really use some "time off" like that myself! lol
    As for your future? I'm sure in no time you will have some new plan in place....

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