Skip to main content

Defeating the Purpose

It is soooooo hard to break old habits.  Did I mention it's really hard to break old habits?  I'm sure some of you reading this may be like - What???? It's hard for you to break old habits?  If that were so then how were you able to lose 78lbs???  What are you complaining about???

 We'll to be honest with you I struggle along with everyone else.  I've been on this eternal up 2 - 3lbs (sometimes more) then down 2- 3lbs for many, many, many, many weeks.  Why you might ask?  Well lets use today for an example (This is not a pity party but me being painfully honest with myself). 
I ran for 8 miles as I am training for a half marathon - Gulp! 

Then I had a birthday party for my son and I did really well during the party.  I had a big plate of spinach with strawberries a little bit of low fat feta and some balsamic vinaigrette.  I then had one piece of pizza, about 1/2c of homemade strawberry ice cream (so yum!) and some seltzer with a splash of cranberry raspberry juice and a splash of raspberry rum (and I avoided the cupcake).   Good right?  So here's the rest.....

After everyone left to go home I was cleaning up and packed up the remaining pizza to put in the fridge.  Good right?  We'll I managed to eat two more pieces of pizza and I ate one cupcake.  The whole time I kept saying to myself: why are you doing this?  You are erasing all the sweaty eight miles on pizza and a cupcake (really good pizza btw so it wasn't a totally bad experience :-)

And my day is not over.  We are going to dinner at a family members house and I have no idea what's on the menu and I've already blown through all my ww points for the day.  Do I have extra points? Sure but not that many as I've been eating allot the last few days.  Not sure how this is going to play out on the scale but being real about it is the first step (so I say).  I like to be painfully honest with myself.  No excuses!

My new long term game plan (sure will power only goes so far):  Reprogram my mind for these moments of weakness.  I'm going to write out cards and put them everywhere in my house (bedroom, cupboard, fridge).  Hopefully my husband and kids won't think I've gone mad.  The cards will read something like this:  This moment will pass and you will thank yourself now go get a drink of water; go find something to do on your 'to do' list; give yourself a pedicure; paint the living room :-)   You get the idea.  What I hope to do is replace old habits with new ones.  This is a muscle I need to exercise and whip into shape.  I've come too far to not maintain what I currently have lost and I want to reach my goal.  I have every confidence that I can get there if I put my mind to it and learn new behaviors. Rome wasn't built in a day so this could take some time.  The point is 'getting there' and staying 'there'.  This is for a lifetime and not just to fit into a summer bathing suit or to fit into a dress for a special event.  This is for a lifetime.

No matter what!


  1. I like your perspective (honesty is best) and it sounds VERY normal for everyone. If you are working your body harder (sounds like it), then you need to account for that with proper nutrition choices (bday parties can't count). I would seek the advice of a trainer or a nutritionist - if you are eating enough protein and healthy fats, I don't think you would crave and cave into the cupcake and pizza. I am at where you are but I also know that sometimes there are others who may be able to help me too. The cards are a great idea (they've worked for me) and having pre-made veggys ready to go is very helpful when you want that 2nd pc of pizza or cupcake. It is mind over matter though, so I know you will conquer this just as you've lost all the weight. It will take time; don't give up!! Thanks for being honest with yourself and the rest of us ; ) -mid

  2. Thank you so much for your thoughts Mid! Since this post I have been eating more protein and healthy fats and the cravings have gone away!! Now if I can just be consistent with tracking my points and calories I'll be were I want to be weight wise.


Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Weight Watchers vs. Jillian Michael's

It's been a little over 3 years (January 2010) since I started my weight loss journey. I reached my goal weight in May of 2011 (135 lbs). Since then it's been a yoyo and my trend had been going up over the last several months. My current weight is 150 lbs (I was 155 but lost 5lbs over the last few weeks). My goal is to lose the weight I put back on (20 lbs) plus an additional 5 lbs for a weight loss of 25 lbs in total. It's so hard keeping the weight off!!

The strategy I'm now doing this time is different. I've decided to follow Jillian Michael's weight loss program instead of continuing on with Weight Watchers. I lost the 80lbs on Weight Watchers and the program served me well. It forced me to look at portion size, calories (with old points system), fiber, carbs, fat and protein (with the new points plus system).  It changed the way I looked at food. Instead of processed foods I focused on eating a variety of whole fruits, vegetables, legumes, grains and low …

Trying the 'New' Weight Watchers Program

I've been on the new WW program starting January 11th, 2018 (to date 3/21/2018 I've lost 7 lbs).  Why? Because what do I have to lose besides pounds of course!? My sanity perhaps on what seems like a life long journey. Woops! Too late!

My ultimate goal in life when it comes to health and weight loss is to be able to eat without counting calories or points. That can be very difficult for me. Since starting this blog I have earned a degree in Exercise Science and I now have certifications: ACSM CPT, ACE GFI and I've completed coursework to be a licensed coach in my state. With all my education and personal experience (80 lb weight loss) I would have thought things would be easier by now but they're not. Science has proven that when it comes to weight loss it's calories in vs. calories out. Unfortunately calorie counting doesn't account for all the psychological, sociological and biological reasons why we eat what we eat. I need to try a new approach so I'm g…

5.27 miles outside!

This morning was 35 degrees, rainy, hilly, and I couldn't have done it without the great group of women I ran with today. 
As I was running I received a few comments on how cut my calves looked.  The first thing that came to mind and I said out loud was: "yes I have big calves".  The response I received was: "I wish I had your cut calves".  It's funny how what we have others want and vice verse (I would prefer smaller less cut calves however they do come in handy on the hills).  It's funny how perceptions can very greatly from one person to the next.
The picture in this post was taken after the run.  I tried to flex for the camera to see what my running partners were talking about.  If I can get a better picture I'll post one later.
Today I am wearing running tights for the first time btw - and I love them!  I don't look as bad as I thought and they feel great on.
Ladies you keep me going.

Keep moving no matter what!