Sonya's Losing It

I Purchased some really good blueberries at the grocery store.  I've been eating lots of apples and was looking for something different (blueberries are only in season July/August in my area so I was happy to see them :-).  The berries looked fresh, firm, great color (like a blueberry should look) and no smashed berries at the bottom of the container.  My boys love berries so I was happy to see them in a large container.  For dessert and snack I had a cup of blueberries with 1TB of whipping cream.  The blueberries were great on their own but with some cream they were amazing!  The sweet tang of the blueberries combined with the sweet cream was a great combination.  Needless to say I'll be getting more of these if they are still available. On this lifestyle journey I've found that my success with eating has been with having a variety of really good food.  If I mix up my diet with a variety of fruits and vegetables then I don't get bored and it helps me stay on track

A few more pictures I took today.  I was a little obsessed with the taking pictures of icicles.  These are just a few of the pictures I took today :-) Drip  A sign so the delivery person could find their home. Mailboxes are buried and there is no place to put the snow. The orange flag is where their mailbox is.    More snow is expected this Wednesday.  Those are mailboxes on the left in the snowbank.  A clever way to deliver the local flier.  Typically the fliers are hung from the mailbox. 'Icicle Garland'  This 'icicle' reminded me of an ocean wave or water pouring our of a bucket.    The 'dog way' so the girls can have a place to do their business.  

 I was thinking of my friend N ~ when I took these pictures.  My friend N~  loves this time of year and her poem at the end of yoga class inspired me to take a few photos.  Enjoy!  Time to put my feet by the fire and rest some tired muscles (for as long as my kids will let me that is :-) .    

I made it through my workout today (a little less painful than Wednesday when it comes to lack of motivation).  A 3 mile run in a little over 30 minutes and then a yoga class.  Feeling better today (the blahs aren't so bad today) but not feeling really energetic either.  I don't feel at the top of my game.  Not sure what that's all about? - I've been taking my multivitamin with iron and eating well so I'll see what the next few days bring.

I received an email the other day from a reader of my blog about anxiety around food and I thought what better time than now to talk about eating disorders (anorexia, bulimia, binge eating) . I have never suffered from anorexia or bulimia but have had some issues I believe with binge eating (how else does someone who's 5' 2" get to 215lbs - right?). I remember there being a time in my life where food didn't matter.  I would much rather play outside then go inside at lunch time to eat.  I would finally come in for dinner and I would be so tired from running around outside I would fall asleep at the dinner table with my face in my plate.  At some point that all changed. It was the beginning of summer and our babysitter took us to the local corner store in our neighborhood.  I was about the age of eight at the time and I purchased a bag of Dortitos (not the small size but a normal/large bag that had several servings in it).  I'm not sure where I got the money fo

Got to the gym and stopped my 5 - 1 intervals.  I quit running around the 2 mile mark.  I just wanted to quit so I did.  Well sorta.  I just kept moving and in a burst of anger and frustration with my self I sprinted for one minute and then I sprinted again for a minute after walking for a few minutes. It felt great!  - and that's when it started to snow.   Needless to say I left at that point as driving in the snow with a 22month old doesn't set well with me (I wasn't in our car with 4WD). I'm all over the place today... feeling blah then the next moment feeling OK then feeling blah.  All I ask is for a little consistency.  Consistency I find comforting.  Hope I can get over this mental block what ever it is.  I'm now having doubts about running the 5k and 12k I'm planning on signing up for. 

As I type this I'm waiting for my I Pod Nano to charge a little before I run to the gym...... Today is so Blah!  I felt really great yesterday and now I feel so blah!  Cabin fever perhaps?  Not enough sleep?  I'm going to try and run 4 miles today and see how that goes with the run 5 minutes walk 1 minute.  I'm feeling so unmotivated right now but I have to do this.  I can't start a trend of not sticking with my routine.  God give me strength to get through my workout and today. I think I'm going to need someself care at the end of today.  Tomorrow will most likely be another snow day so I'm going to need all the self care I can get! Blah!

Went to a WW meeting tonight.  Made sure I took my boots off before I stepped on the scale (I weigh 150lbs with my clothes on).  I felt a little bit weird being at the meeting as I wasn't sitting there as a fat obese person (at my past experiences at ww meetings I was the obese person sitting in the room). My thoughts on the new WW points system: 1) I'm glad to see the emphasis on more fruits and vegetables (many are zero points now).  2) The bummer on the new points system is that the peas, pasta, avocado and some beans I love are now higher in points.  3) On the up side I am allowed more points to eat in a day (I'm going from 23points to 29points) with a weekly set of extra points at 49.  It's going to take some adjusting for learning the new points for some of the foods I eat but if it helps keep me going in the right direction then I'll do it. 4) There are no more point sliders but a points calculator that will work well for when I'm shopping in

I've had many people mention to me how hard it is to avoid temptation.  I must say I have that same problem too or I would have never made it to 215 lbs. Here are a few thoughts I have on the subject of temptation and how I deal with it. Several reasons why I have eaten the 'wrong things' in the past: 1. I love to eat for comfort (happy, sad, any occasion really). 2. I sometimes eat even when I'm past the point of being full because I feel like I can't get enough of something (cake or brownies for example). 3. My body gets caught up in the cycle of sugar and simple carbohydrates (potato chips, donuts or cake - anything made with white flour).  If I eat a simple carbohydrate my body feels hungry a short time later and I eat way more calories than if I just ate something healthy to begin with (nuts, fruit, complex carb etc..).  I crave more of the sugary fat food I just ate and the cycle repeats. What helps me stay on track today with healthy food choices

I did really well eating yesterday and avoided all the temptations.  I must say doing a preliminary weigh in on Friday helped keep me motivated to not blow it for today's weigh in. -4 lb enough said :-)

Before my class I got a run in of 30mins on an incline of 2 (31mins in total; walked 1min, ran 15min, walked 2min, ran 7min, walked 1min, ran 2min, walked 1min, ran 2min). Kick Your Butt! - are the words I heard many times during the Butts and Gutts Class this morning.  My body will be feeling it for a few days as I feel like I got my butt kicked. Next workout day will be Wednesday.  I'll need the next few days to give my muscles some recovery time :-)

Needless to say it is going to be a busy day! 9am is my scheduled Butts and Guts Class (may try to get a run in before then), then my nieces Baptism at 1pm, a Birthday party at 2pm and Ice Skating lessons for my son at 4:45pm.   For dinner I will be making corned beef, cabbage, carrots and potatoes in the crock pot.  The last thing I'm going to want to do at the end of the day is cook. I hope I do well with my eating today.  I find it VERY difficult to eat well in social settings.  I tend to sometimes....OK who am I kidding... most of the time I eat way too much past the point of being full.  The last few times I did this was around the holidays and I literally had a couple of food hangovers.  It was like I had way too many drinks the night before only I had no alcohol just tons of sugar, fats, and simple white flour carbohydrates.  Tomorrow is my official weigh day so we'll see how today goes.  I'll keep my weigh day in mind when I'm faced with temptations.  Per