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Contemplating

Your Choices Will Change The World
Thought For Today:
My choices will change my world
and it's up to me to make
the right choices.
This morning I awoke to my alarm at 6 am. I got up used the bathroom and then stood in my bedroom contemplating if I was going back to bed. I decided to lay back down and then my mind started cycling ahead about the consequences of going back to bed. My plans were to attend the 7 am spin class at the local gym. I then started thinking about how bad I would feel if I didn't go to the class. Not going would lead to not feeling great about missing the class which would then lead to falling into food temptations. I'm an all or nothing type person (something I'm working on changing) and not going to spin would turn into a tailspin of eating - "why not eat everything?" - I said to myself. I would either go all the way with exercising and eating well or I wasn't going to do any of it.  The last time I didn't eat well I gained 6 lbs over the loss of my dog Java. With weight gain I really feel the consequences in my running and exercise. I run really s l o w and my stamina isn't where it used to be. My body has to work that much harder to move when carrying that extra weight.

I then got out of bed and stood in my room saying in my mind: "should I or shouldn't I?".

I finally made the decision that I was going to go to spin.
And I did.
And it was worth it.

And as always I never regret doing a workout. EVER.

Today was a small victory or a step in the right direction and I'm just going to keep going .....

No matter what!

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