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Finish Every Day

Finish Every DayRalph Waldo Emerson Finish every day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be cumbered with your old nonsense. This day is all that is good and fair. It is too dear, with its hopes and invitations, to waste a moment on yesterdays.

Today

Depression is kicking my ass today.

I forced myself to go to the gym this morning when I would rather stay in bed.

I carried on a smile when I saw a familiar face this morning.  While I enjoy seeing people I know and like I had moments of relief when I didn't bump into someone I new.  Saying hi to someone would mean I would have to put on a mask with a smile.  My legs felt like I had bricks attached to them as I ran 3 miles. I didn't want to run but I knew I would feel worse if I went home without that accomplishment.  During my run after the first mile the endorphins kicked in and I felt 'ok' from that time until a little while after I finished my exercise.

So the big question is why am I getting my ass kicked today after doing so well for many weeks after the outpatient program?  Not sure.  There has been a change in my meds as of three weeks ago and I'm sure my hormones are affecting things on some level.  One of the frustrations I have with meds is it can tak…